It has been a month since I’m in Japan, and loads of things has happened, and I still could not believe I can keep my sanity in check because of the culture difference.
Anyway, it has been a month since I’ve arrived, and I’m currently settled down in a new place, which is about 3 stations away from where I’ve stayed previously, and I guess it is much better as I have own personal room as I’m writing right now.
It is getting much colder each day, and to be honest, just on my first day of work, I was shocked because I literally had nothing to but to stare into the screen for the whole day as my supervisor wasn’t around, and the first day orientation was abit boring. And in my second week, I was thrown into the job without any prior detailed instructions, but just to do proof reading. I treated it as a general translation proof reading, and the feedback I got back wasn’t that great either. It was then I started to question if what I’ve learnt back in Singapore was correct or not. I started to question my own ability, my own level of language (English is just my first language, and not my native language), and whether I was suitable for the job. I couldn’t find a fit because it was totally different from what I’ve imagined, and my mentor (she just switched to part-time basis because she’s doing her Masters in Japan) wasn’t in most of the time, and I don’t know who I can ask help to as I wasn’t familiar with anyone.
Much thanks to bestie whom I confided to during my bad times, and she was the one who picked up my call during her office hours to hear my rants. I’m very thankful for her giving me a listening ear. I’m not sure how I can survive if it wasn’t for her to lend me her listening ear. The reason why I said so is because there are some things that my bf as a Japanese couldn’t understand, and he always brushes it off saying that you (which is me), should get accustomed to the culture here. On top of that, he also irritated me a few times that I got so mad to the extent I was saying the f-word to him multiple times in the middle of the night.
Things are much better now as I managed to find some Singaporeans (living in Japan) to confide to, my China colleague who is very patient with me because I know I can be unreasonable, and yes I have a princess attitude (公主病), my all time bestie whom I always confide to every week, and my bf who started to become more understanding when I broke down one day.
Probably I didn’t mentioned why I broke down one day, which was like a few days coming to Japan, my grandmother fell down and injured her arm. I was shocked to receive an SMS from my uncle who messaged me saying that my grandmother is in the hospital. I quickly went out of the office to make a long distance call (kudos to Whatsapp so I only need to use my data plan to call), and even told my uncle that I’m going to buy a last minute ticket and fly back to Singapore just to see my grandmother. My grandmother is pretty old, at the age of 92, and it is a wonder that she still can walk around without any aids, but the fall this time was due to her shopping trolley got stuck in one of the small drainage holes, and she used her strength to push it, which lead to her fall as she couldn’t balance the trolley after giving it a hard push. She fractured her arm where fragments of bone are left inside the flesh, and also had black bruises on her face.
On that very night when I was contemplating whether to fly back or not due to the last minute ticket prices, my uncle and my aunt told me I need not to fly back because it wasn’t that major, but I felt that it was major because whenever an elderly starts falling down, it is a sign showing that more falls may come, and I’m praying hard that it will not be the same as my grandfather’s case.
So, in the end, I didn’t fly back, but I will be flying back during CNY, and also the golden week.
I guess you all must be bored with all the lengthy post, so I shall post some pictures to make sure that everyone is still reading the post!
My lovely friends who sent me off that night! Thank you girls for spending time with me before I fly off to Japan! Am missing you two!!
Farewell dinner with my family members and my favorite grandmother and aunt!
Am already missing my two cute yet naughty nephews!
And I actually cried abit before my family members left and also before takeoff, and this made me realize how much I am going to miss my family members. No doubt there is internet and so on, nothing is better than being beside them. Hopefully I can go back to SG soon to work *cross fingers*
Anyway, I shall stop here, and continue sometime soon!
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