Just an update on the things that have happened this August, because many things have happened, went haywire, and my life is just really topsy turvy.
Felt very introvert to the extend where I feel that human relationships are bothersome and cumbersome, and I don’t really want to deal with it because dealing with it will make me even tired. And just last Monday, something happened in office, and I broke down.
It is so totally not me, because I don’t think that I would do such thing but I guess emotions come first before logic does.
Broke down. Cried. Went to get comfort from le bf yet le bf said that I jumped into conclusions too quick. Broke down again. Went to seek for some peace in mind. Felt better after talking to the uncle who helps to do interpretations divination near Kwan Im Thong Hood Cho Temple. The uncle told me that everything is just in my mind. All I need to do is not to think too much. And after listening to his advice, went to pray, I felt much better, and of course felt peace. I’m not an avid believer of Buddhism, but then after experiencing some things I do believe that such things do exists. Well, it could be just my imagination.
Anyway, I’m trying to take things slowly, trying to restrain myself from like buying things that are just wants but not needs, eating things that are not good for my body and so on. Having worked out for the past 3 months and eating healthily (although there are some cheat days for me, because I cannot live without carbohydrates), I have successfully shed off 4kg, which I could never put myself to doing it. Much thanks to my trainer, Ramp at FF for always pushing me even though I kept saying I couldn’t do it. Besides that I have also changed my lifestyle albeit where I started to drink more warm water than room temperature water and cold water, breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dine like a pauper, taking morning walks from the MRT station to my office and many others. And because all of these worked, I was able to shed that much. I have another 10kg more to shed, and my Chinese doctor mention that it is water retention problem, so I started to take Chinese medicine to adjust my body condition.
Well, that’s about it for August. Shall stop here, and update another day!