I think my busy yet unexpected period (not that type of period) is about to come to end, and I’m thankful that everything has went well on my father’s side, and as for my work, though I won’t say it was smooth-sailing, except for some hiccups at work due to *ahem* (which I shall keep it mum for now), I can say that I can only just “suck thumb loh”, and then see how the situation goes.
Won’t be blogging that frequently, and most travelogues will be on hold because I had a hard time sorting out my pictures (coz I’m one crazy messy person when it comes to sorting things, but yet I know where I put them), but I will try my best to update them as much as I can.
I think most close friends would know what have happened recently, and I’m juggling in between work and hospital now, which can be tiring. Imagine after working like keesiao (mad) at work, and then rushing off to the hospital can be taxing not only physically but mentally too. I’m really mentally burned out by the fact that things are so not going my way, and I had to find other ways out. It was really vexing that I was doing this alone, even though my 2nd brother helped me out along the way, it was even more vexing that I couldn’t really tell this to anyone. I’m not that type of person who would rely on others unless needed. I kept telling myself that I could do this on my own, but I guess I’m wrong. It took me a few weeks to realize this, and by then when I knew it, I was burned out. I sort of under performed at work, and sad to say, gave some crap work, because my motivation was practically zero, and I had no goal in mind then.
After doing some soul searching, and also me-talks (some researchers say that talking to yourself could actually make you smart!) at night, made me realize where I went wrong, and thought on how I could try to rectify everything back to normal. It was hard, but there was no choice to do it, rather then falling deep into the blackhole without knowing when you would ever come out.
July will be a new start, and looking back at what has happened in the month of May and June, I am thankful that I managed to survive, even though I’m like totally burned out to the max, I’m glad that it is almost over, and I can say hello again to my usual life!
That’s about it!!